Maybe this will please a lot of my fans and friends but also may be bad surprise for some people who know me as possible-bride of one of elite Satanists who was a leader in 13th century. Well, I'm the heiress and I'm not gonna leave the Cult. Also, because of specific point in relationship with Satanist with knee-length raven-black hair, we cannot be together. In his past life, he was one of my ancestors. I believe in soul reincarnation. He too. So I'll stay in the Cult as model, speaker, artist, supporter. But by contract only. I always prefer contracts. To be free, because for me, words 'obligation' and 'promise' are synonyms. So those who want to talk with my x-beloved - they are free to do that. But I'll not ask him to contact anyone.
Also because (for now and I don't know for how long in the future) Marilyn Manson is only one person to whom I feel love and huge sympathy. Yes, that is MM but not a person behind the stage image. I don't want to imagine his lovely face without makeup. I love his images from 1st album to 2002. I don't care who will say that something wrong with me if I like a person who has long hair, unusual makeup and dressed in top, which is made from pieces of ribbons, and also has stockings with lots of holes. For me, that is hot and sexy as Hell! I heard a lot of offending words about MM and his image (back in 1997 when it was beginning of my love story). Most of my relatives thought that it was my next crazy joke to love such one. But no matter what people think about, I'm in love again. After 15 years. I don't know for how long. Maybe it will ends in a month... Back in 1999, to study Black Magic and receive my Master's Degree, it wasn't allowed for me to love anyone. Or my sweety will be "deleted from this world". I decided to "close my wings down" to prevent a situation when my magical power may harm my sweetheart because it can be only before my graduation. Since January 1999, I have lost a few family members, my beloved Tim and a few friends. I'm not and will never blame anyone in that. I'm happy of reaching my goal to have graduation and be the Black Magic Professor. And I'm thankful a lot to my x-beloved Satanist who gave me that graduation. Thank you dear Master of Darkness. Thanks so much! But I'm not belong to you or anyone else. I'm free to live as I want and do what I want. Even in the name of Satan and for his Glory, you cannot force me to stay with you my dear. If I'll have a chance to be with my lovely MM, even for a short time, I'll be happy. I never show my feelings when I talk to people, even on my home-made videos. According my image of Metal Queen, I have to look cold like a real metal. So Metal Queen should never show her face when she is in love. Nobody should see that bright light in her eyes... Yes, I'm such girl. Sofia the Metal Queen. And Marilyn Manson is a person that I love so much. But I can control my feeling. So nobody will see my face when I think of my lovely MM. I'm metalhead. Black metal fashion designer and photomodel. I have to be strong and look cool and cold, ha. And, I don't have a dream to marry my sweetheart. It isn't my goal because I have dream of getting back steel-making factory and thousand acres of land that communists have grabbed from my dynasty during the revolution 1917. In my age 10, I decided to marry a person who has really big money to buy all what I want. I really adore Marilyn Manson's stage image, makeup, sexy voice. Bill Gates has big money. And when I talk about "big money", I mean that much. I adore people like Bill Gates, Mark Zuckerberg, J. Paul Getty, etc. These people have made cool things & earned big money from that.
I'm metalhead girl who was born in rich family. But during a time of war for oil, in so-called homeland, a huge part of hometown & also its suburbs were destroyed by heavy artillery. Have you ever seen thing which is known as "multiple rocket launcher", in action? Probably you never saw that. So I'm not gentle romantic, even if I love flowers. I hate when somebody is lying that he/she is someone else and calls such lies their profession. I live in Hollywood but don't watch movies because nothing interesting in screen plays which are almost-same for at least 14 years. Youtube is much more cool because there are always new videos everyday. I sure that actresses should be paid no more than $5 per work hour because everybody can play role. No talent needed to play a role. Everyone can do that. In movie is only-one important thing is: script / screenplay. Doesn't matter who play role because movie is not live record, it is someone's fantasy. But I love MM and wish all the best to this unique person. I'm not gonna stalk this cool person. If he will wish to be my friend - I'll welcome him. Doors to my house are always open for him. But I'm not a girl who'll stalk a "star" to get next boyfriend in collection then can kick him out because "star" is no longer wish to promote girlfriend and pay for her needs. I welcome brave and honest people who will love, understand and support me, my art and fashion. For me no stars. We the people. Stars are only in the sky. Some people are talented, some are famous for nothing.
So relationship with black-haired Satanist came to its end. Not because of my love to MM but because of my darling's past life where he and his 8th wife were my dad's ancestors. That his past life was in 13th century. And, now is 21st. But nobody have found golden treasures of Satanic Cult Leader and his wife. His gold is still being a mystery, a treasure hunters' dream. So we have a chance to find those boxes filled with gold, which are hidden somewhere in Norway 6 other countries in Europe.
