The end of my relationship with x-beloved who gave me Black Magic Master's Degree

Maybe this will please a lot of my fans and friends but also may be bad surprise for some people who know me as possible-bride of one of elite Satanists who was a leader in 13th century. Well, I'm the heiress and I'm not gonna leave the Cult. Also, because of specific point in relationship with Satanist with knee-length raven-black hair, we cannot be together. In his past life, he was one of my ancestors. I believe in soul reincarnation. He too. So I'll stay in the Cult as model, speaker, artist, supporter. But by contract only. I always prefer contracts. To be free, because for me, words 'obligation' and 'promise' are synonyms. So those who want to talk with my x-beloved - they are free to do that. But I'll not ask him to contact anyone.

Also because (for now and I don't know for how long in the future) Marilyn Manson is only one person to whom I feel love and huge sympathy. Yes, that is MM but not a person behind the stage image. I don't want to imagine his lovely face without makeup. I love his images from 1st album to 2002. I don't care who will say that something wrong with me if I like a person who has long hair, unusual makeup and dressed in top, which is made from pieces of ribbons, and also has stockings with lots of holes. For me, that is hot and sexy as Hell! I heard a lot of offending words about MM and his image (back in 1997 when it was beginning of my love story). Most of my relatives thought that it was my next crazy joke to love such one. But no matter what people think about, I'm in love again. After 15 years. I don't know for how long. Maybe it will ends in a month... Back in 1999, to study Black Magic and receive my Master's Degree, it wasn't allowed for me to love anyone. Or my sweety will be "deleted from this world". I decided to "close my wings down" to prevent a situation when my magical power may harm my sweetheart because it can be only before my graduation. Since January 1999, I have lost a few family members, my beloved Tim and a few friends. I'm not and will never blame anyone in that. I'm happy of reaching my goal to have graduation and be the Black Magic Professor. And I'm thankful a lot to my x-beloved Satanist who gave me that graduation. Thank you dear Master of Darkness. Thanks so much! But I'm not belong to you or anyone else. I'm free to live as I want and do what I want. Even in the name of Satan and for his Glory, you cannot force me to stay with you my dear. If I'll have a chance to be with my lovely MM, even for a short time, I'll be happy. I never show my feelings when I talk to people, even on my home-made videos. According my image of Metal Queen, I have to look cold like a real metal. So Metal Queen should never show her face when she is in love. Nobody should see that bright light in her eyes... Yes, I'm such girl. Sofia the Metal Queen. And Marilyn Manson is a person that I love so much. But I can control my feeling. So nobody will see my face when I think of my lovely MM. I'm metalhead. Black metal fashion designer and photomodel. I have to be strong and look cool and cold, ha. And, I don't have a dream to marry my sweetheart. It isn't my goal because I have dream of getting back steel-making factory and thousand acres of land that communists have grabbed from my dynasty during the revolution 1917. In my age 10, I decided to marry a person who has really big money to buy all what I want. I really adore Marilyn Manson's stage image, makeup, sexy voice. Bill Gates has big money. And when I talk about "big money", I mean that much. I adore people like Bill Gates, Mark Zuckerberg, J. Paul Getty, etc. These people have made cool things & earned big money from that.

I'm metalhead girl who was born in rich family. But during a time of war for oil, in so-called homeland, a huge part of hometown & also its suburbs were destroyed by heavy artillery. Have you ever seen thing which is known as "multiple rocket launcher", in action? Probably you never saw that. So I'm not gentle romantic, even if I love flowers. I hate when somebody is lying that he/she is someone else and calls such lies their profession. I live in Hollywood but don't watch movies because nothing interesting in screen plays which are almost-same for at least 14 years. Youtube is much more cool because there are always new videos everyday. I sure that actresses should be paid no more than $5 per work hour because everybody can play role. No talent needed to play a role. Everyone can do that. In movie is only-one important thing is: script / screenplay. Doesn't matter who play role because movie is not live record, it is someone's fantasy. But I love MM and wish all the best to this unique person. I'm not gonna stalk this cool person. If he will wish to be my friend - I'll welcome him. Doors to my house are always open for him. But I'm not a girl who'll stalk a "star" to get next boyfriend in collection then can kick him out because "star" is no longer wish to promote girlfriend and pay for her needs. I welcome brave and honest people who will love, understand and support me, my art and fashion. For me no stars. We the people. Stars are only in the sky. Some people are talented, some are famous for nothing.

So relationship with black-haired Satanist came to its end. Not because of my love to MM but because of my darling's past life where he and his 8th wife were my dad's ancestors. That his past life was in 13th century. And, now is 21st. But nobody have found golden treasures of Satanic Cult Leader and his wife. His gold is still being a mystery, a treasure hunters' dream. So we have a chance to find those boxes filled with gold, which are hidden somewhere in Norway 6 other countries in Europe.

Рисование павлина, начало. Выбор материала для вышивки бисером. Beginning of new peacock painting

Привет всем кто читает мой блог,
на сегодня, хочу расказать новой картине, которая позже будет, планирую, очередным шедевром вышивки бисером ;) По запросам от подписчиков мы засняли на видео самое начало процесса работы над созданием картины.   Как я рисую павлина...  Ну да, это будет ещё один павлин. Мне кажется, красота этих птиц просто безгранична ;)

Начало создания картины вышивки бисером, с карандашного наброска. В этом видео я также рассказываю, с чего лучше начинать рисунок, как лучше распределить где голова где кончик хвоста. Если картина не сюжетная и объект только один, то важны детали, чтобы они не создавали зрительный перегруз и одновременно чтобы не было лишку пустого пространства, от которого может смотреться скучно даже очень красивая работа. Это видео - часть 1 - Рисунок и подбор бисера, страз и т.д.  А в конце я рассказываю подробности о подборе бисера, пайеток и других материалов,которые позже понадобятся для вышивания.

Конечно, как некоторые зрители на Ютюб писали после просмотра моих видео: "Не у всех есть возможность пойти и купить планшет. Есть те, кому приходится сколачивать подрамник и натягивать холст." ОК, просто к слову, для этой картины имеет свою историю... Карты очень хорошие вещи ;) Иногда. В этом видео я рассказываю, как ко мне неожиданно попал этот планшет и с ним пришла идея новой картины. Некоторым моим подписчикам было интересно узнать, как и откуда я беру идеи для картин ;)

Hello everyone who read my blog! Now I wanna tell ya a cool news: I'm about start to work on creation of my new beadwork (bead embroidery) painting. On this video you can see me and how I draw. Next peacock painting in progress, start from scratch. Part 1 - the beginning of creation of painting. Pencil sketch before coloring. Then I choose beads, sequins, rhinestone stuff for making the beadwork and describe specifics of beads quality, which ones are good for that kinda beadwork and why. I also tell where and how I found that unusual canvas... Hellyeah, playing cards are awesome things, haha ;) Sometimes. And, to answer question regarding "do I still love Marilyn Manson's music: hellyeah, yes of course. Such sexy voice... I love that voice. And CD brought next good luck tome. Thanx darling, I love to be winner in games, haha. So, something green is gonna be next bead embroidery masterpriece. I'm inspired, it like being "on fire", haha. Video is in Russian language 'cuz most of my channel subscribers who are interested in art of beadwork speak Russian. Someday I'll make another video in English, where will show how to draw... It will be something metal related ;) \m/

Моя другая (уже проданная) вышивка павлин - смотреть тут


Продолжение процесса рисования павлина будет продолжен на видео и будет опубликован в моём блоге.

Подпишись(тесь) на мой канал http://www.youtube.com/SOFIA2009METALQUEEN
Спасибо ;)
 

Jeweled Metallica beadwork art. Вышивка бисером, сваровски. Алмазная техника

Hi world,

This story will be about one of my best-and-favorite beadwork (bead embroidery artworks) - Metallica, logo-01. I made it using beads, glass beads, swarovski elemets, crystals, rhinestones & metal elements. Well, as yu probably heard from me before, beadwork art process takes really long time. And a lot of attention... Because needlework is very specific kinda art. And needle is a very fine tool... The "Diamond technique" / Алмазная техника / is a classic style of rhinestone mosaic art. Age of this style is at least 10,000 years - when we were in India, in one museum I saw a few ancient paintings done by using crystals instead of paints... Such style art is something really sparkling... I love it. Actually, in this artwork, I used "Diamond technique" for Metallica name and, "scary-f*ckinka" & text of message - a mainpoint of artwork. So this painting is a mix of classic beadwork, modern beadwork, diamond technique and also has a chains as accent.

Metallica is my number-one favorite band, and first metal band I hear in my life, in 1986 in my age 5. So, being metalli-fan for so long time... Ha, pretty cool. Sometimes I feel that other bands temporary take Metallica's place in my heart. But, that is always just-temporary. For example, Once (back in 1997) I felt love-n-sympathy to Marilyn Manson, who's music/voice/style is 100% opposite to both Metallica and Black Metal. Well, my dad's friend once gave me CD /ASIN: B000001Y7P/ to listen and enjoy. According Mansur's opinion, a short composition N8 is most funny thing to listen to, especially for schoolgirls. He said: "Wanna shift on good mood and laugh aloud? Put this CD into player, take your headphones on and listen to track number 8, skip 1-7 for now. Enjoy!" I listened for that just a few seconds and began to laugh aloud so everybody thought that walls will fall down! Ha, I have imaged process of recodrding that in studio ;) I played that 'song' again and again, at least 20 times. It was something really unusual, so soon there was only-one thing: love to a person on a middle of photo on back side of CD, so I loved MM since 1st time heard that "song".. But when I purchased Metallica's "Re-load" and played it 1st time, there was like a shift - Metallica came back on top place on my list of favorites, after a few minutes of listening to that album... ;) They really got a fan-by-heart, ha. 4ever.

Ok, later I likes sooooo much a few other bands: Dimmu Borgir, Manowar, Rob Zombie. But again and again, Metallica returns on 1st place in my heart. So I know that no matter how many bands I'll find, love and maybe will love band member(s)... Metallica will be on 1st place. Always. Forever.
So I made this artwork to show my opinion : Metallica is the best and forever! You can call me crazy fan, I don't care. Hellyeah, I love Metallica. I mean music, sound, voice, everything Metallica. But I never had an idea to marry with any of them. So, when the heart leads my hand - it makes \m/ \m/ but not ♥.  По-русски: Я имею в виду, что для настоящего металлиста - если сердце направляет руку - пальцы сложатся в классический знак - 2 пальца вверх - приветствие в стиле металла, так называемая "коза", а не наивное сердечко.... Девчонки-группи, по мнению большинства моих друзей-рокеров, не понимают что металл-музыка это жизнь, а не гонка за добавлением очередного экспоната в коллекцию бойфрендов ;)

Once again, needlework is very specific kinda art. And needle is too fine tool... So, for now, a little bit about beadwork process...  Дело в том, что для бисера чаще всего нужны тонкие иглы, и даже очень тонкие, а сам процесс вышивания это продвижение по миллиметру. Через пару часов непрерывной работы начинается ощущение что пальцы как из деревяшки, практически не чувствуется держу ли иглу вообще. Просто тыкать по канве, да к тому же проклеенной стяжкой-акриликом, с нанесёным слоем краски и туго натянуной на деревянную основу - вот это берёт намного больше усилий, чем просто шить по бархату или атласу. Но зато это будет картина а не фрагмент платья. Мне многие пацаны говорят, что у меня рука как из металла. ОК, для металлистки это годится. А так, я вообще-то практикую дзэнские тренировки для пальцев, чтобы не уставать. Многие вышивальщицы говорят о проблемах попадания иголкой по пальцу, особенно при вышивании на скорость. Ну а тренировки с песком, да притом мокрым... Это помогает, причём классно)

Well, it little bet more easy to describe that in Russian language. For me. Ok, google service has online translations... I hope you'll understand.

Much love to: Metallica, all fans and, of course to those who love beadwork art ;)